When you’re a child, you dream of the day that you can be a grown up. You crave responsibility and to do the things that the “big kids” and adults do. It is ironic that once we are here in the big world, we sometimes wish we were back in our carefree childhood days. To be a kid again, when all you have to worry about is being home before dark, washing your hands before you eat and making your bed in the morning.
When the weight of the world gets me down, and problems loom over my head, I would give anything to escape and be a 6 year old again, living back in Wilton on Erdmann Lane. We would play endless games of kick ball and cops and robbers. Summer days/nights were the best. Bedtime was later, there was rarely a schedule and the homemade ice pops were always in the freezer.
I suppose the key is to always remain a child at heart. To keep that carefree feeling of childhood deep inside you, so when life drags you down and chows you for dinner, you can remember those happy days that helped make you who you are.
It is funny, back when I was a kid I definitely had days where I thought life was more than unfair. These days, what seemed unfair back then doesn’t even BEGIN to compare to what is truly unfair to me today.
No one ever thinks they will have problems having a baby. You always dream of it happening and just assume it will be easy. No one ever seems to think “I wonder if I will have problems?” You will get married, you will get pregnant right when you want to, and your baby will be perfect. Life is a fairy tale. I guess that must be true for some people. I wish we were part of that “some people.”
I am just trying to focus on the fact that hopefully this time, we will get answers. We will find out why pregnancy isn’t working for us, and hopefully what we can do to make our baby dreams come true.